"Take Me In Your Arms" also known as "Miss Heroin"

Take Me in Your Arms

(Miss Heroin)

So now, little man, you've grown tired of grass
LSD, goofballs, cocaine and hash, 
and someone, pretending to be a true friend,
said, "I'll introduce you to Miss Heroin."

Well honey, before you start fooling with me, 
just let me inform you of how it will be.

For I will seduce you and make you my slave,
I've sent men much stronger than you to their graves.
You think you could never become a disgrace,
and end up addicted to Poppy seed waste.

So you'll start inhaling me one afternoon,
you'll take me into your arms very soon.
And once I've entered deep down in your veins,
The craving will nearly drive you insane.

You'll swindle your mother and just for a buck.
You'll turn into something vile and corrupt.
You'll mug and you'll steal for my narcotic charm,
and feel contentment when I'm in your arms.

The day, when you realize the monster you've grown,
you'll solemnly swear to leave me alone.
If you think you've got that mystical knack,
then sweetie, just try getting me off your back.

The vomit, the cramps, your gut tied in knots.
The jangling nerves screaming for one more shot.
The hot chills and cold sweats, withdrawal pains,
can only be saved by my little white grains.

There's no other way, and there's no need to look,
for deep down inside you know you are hooked.
You'll desperately run to the pushers and then,
you'll welcome me back to your arms once again.

And you will return just as I foretold!
I know that you'll give me your body and soul.
You'll give up your morals, your conscience, your heart.
And you will be mine until, "Death Do Us Part"



Author Anonymous

Humanity: Are We Lacking Compassion?

"Humanity: Are We Lacking Compassion?"
by Robbyn Wallace

I believe that it is up to humanity to realize the lessons put before us so that we evolve to the intended awareness that God seeks in our ultimate companionship. As of thus far, on a grand scale, we have so far to go. We are all connected which means that until all are enlightened we are stagnant in the universal consciousness. Enlightenment for mankind is not an option. Until all humans realize that we need each other and all connect through compassion and love for all creation, we are domed for a viscous cycle of hard lessons. God wants us to take responsibility, this why life is an evolving process at every level from particle to cosmological.

God wants us to follow the convictions he places within each of our hearts. WE change the world (with God) ONE person at a time. If we just sit back and expect God to do what we were put here to do then we have not learned anything that God intended for us. God wants true companionship, and as of right now humanity cannot provide that. Therefore, the cycle of lessons will continue until we evolve to a higher consciousness of awareness. By us participating in learning to live in harmony with ALL God's creation we are fulfilling our purpose. We are the chosen one's, the one's that can and should make a difference. Having tolerance for inhumane acts, whether to humans or other species, is definitely NOT God's will. God gave us "free-will" for a reason, and I plan on using mine to do good in the world and hopefully to make a difference in the world. If people keep sitting back and saying, "God is in control" or God this or God that, we will NEVER accomplish God's intention for us. “God is in control” should not be used as a crutch for us not to do our part or fulfill our purpose. If people care so much about the bible then they need to start letting God truly use them as a vessel, and not keep waiting around for God to do the work we are meant to do. WE make a difference. We make things happen. We are responsible for ourselves AND the world we live in. Start with yourself and then you can really go out into the world and spread TRUE compassion and love. Racism toward other races or species MUST END! All I am saying is that people need to start actually using some of that "bible" knowledge, or any other religious knowledge, they claim to have... I honestly don't need to see quote after quote of bible, etc. versus that the majority of people don't truly comprehend or live. If people want to make a difference and truly live for God it is pretty simple. LIVE A LIFE OF LOVE AND COMPASSION FOR ALL GOD'S CREATION. WE ARE ALL KINDRED SPIRITS. WE ARE ALL GOD'S CHILDREN. WE ARE ALL EQUAL, CONCERNING COMPASSION AND LOVE. WE ARE ALL CONNECTED. WE ALL EXPERIENCE THE CYCLE OF LIFE. IF YOU LOVE GOD, THEN YOU SHOULD LOVE GOD'S CREATION ENTIRELY WITH NO DIFFERENTIATION BETWEEN RACES OR SPECIES. LOVE IS LOVE IS LOVE!!!! FEEL IT AND LIVE IT, AND IT WILL ENCOMPASS ALL THAT YOU ARE AND REPRESENT!!

When I say equal I speak of equality in the showing of compassion, all God’s creation deserves equality as much as we do. When you kill a roach or spider do you purposely make them suffer or do you do it quickly as to avoid inhumane treatment. We are all equal when it comes to deserving compassion and treatment. I would also like to point out that I will educate people in all area’s of suffering, be it child abuse or domestic abuse or any other kind of abuse. Animal cruelty just happens to be the topic at the moment!!

Of course humans, as most species, have the innate instinct to protect their own. This system has served life well in evolution. However, I am not speaking on matters of choosing one species over another but to sustain humane treatment among all inhabitants of the earth. Our compassion should not be contained within limits of only humans but extended to all life, to all of God's creation. Compassion = respect and vice verse. God warded humans as the stewards of the earth. It is our duty to do right among all creation. The environment is no exception to this. If you view the earth as a living cell, then you can understand that all living organisms play a role. We all work together to sustain what we call life. Humans being the most advanced/evolved organisms have the highest responsibility to protect life in all forms. Humans that use their power and status in the cycle of life to cause suffering are inexcusable. I am suggesting that people wake up, quit being blind, and stand up against cruelty. It is up to us to make sure laws against cruelty are upheld to the fullest and to bring awareness to all that we know. All I ask of people is that they go watch the movie on www.earthlings.com. Once you have watched that and you can still say that you don't understand my point, well then I am truly sorry and my heart is heavy. We are all creatures of God, and we all deserve compassion and respect! Go to www.earthlings.com and click on “Feature Film”. It’s a must see documentary about the inhumane treatment of animals. I am so conflicted as to changing my own lifestyle to live by example. Where the heck did human's compassion go? Do we even have a heart for living creatures? We are all connected, and until we wake the heck up and realize that we will NEVER be a peaceful anything nor will we ever live in true harmony.

The world's population will soon reach a level where there will not be enough resources to sustain life, as we know it. Growth must be checked to avoid this catastrophe. Many environmental, social, and economic problems either stem from or are increased in magnitude by the overpopulation problem. With an exponentially increasing population, the problems created by overpopulation grow correspondingly. 

In my opinion humans are becoming like a virus consuming everything in our way until we have depleted our planet's resources. We each have a choice on how we can contribute to saving our planet. Sacrifices must be made for the betterment of our world. 

If we keep going the way we are we will run out of food and water, and starvation will become more of a norm than you want to conceive. After watching how horrible we are to animals’ maybe we deserve to starve. Just pure sickening!!!! I'm fired up and feeling VERY disappointed in humanity right now... I pray that we all wake up before it is too late... This is a very important year for enlightenment!! Please start caring about the world, in which we all share and have a responsibility to!! Peace Out!!

I personally have no problem with consumption of meat if done in humane connate way, but to slaughter in inhumane ways is unacceptable and with good conscious I refuse to be apart of it and will be an advocate to bring awareness of the matter. It's gross, and that is staying it mildly. I am more than willing to try alternatives just to make a stand, not just with the consumption of meat but also other markets where animals are involves. I personally feel convicted by God to make a stand. We should all have a conviction to show compassion and love to all species. I just hope people learn that animals deserve kindness and love also.

My take is not that everyone becomes Vegan but that humans become more 'humane' in their approaches of slaughtering animals and to consider the effects of our actions up on other species in everything concerning them. Also, I think that it is an option to wear clothing, etc. made of animal skin and fur. 

Animals are not the ones devouring and depleting the earth's resources... Humans are the one with a higher consciousness. Therefore it is OUR responsibility to do the RIGHT thing... AND, for peat’s sake we could be a heck of a lot more humane... It is disgraceful how horrible and mean we are to the lower species... I mean really!!!!

If I want to eat meat I think I will stick to meat that are killed with dignity... Local deer or fishing for one... I will, personally, also be learning more about the Vegan lifestyle... Honestly after watching that movie I will always envision the horrible inhuman slaughter of those animals... And as far as milk, please pay close attention to how HORRIBLE they are to those cows that are supplying it. I love milk too, but OMGosh does it have to be under such inhumane conditions? There is always soymilk or brands of milk that cater to ‘happier’ cows. I cried so much during that movie... It hurt me to the very core down to my very soul... I can't imagine treating a living creature with such sick inhumane murder... I would hunt and kill a deer to eat, but I wouldn't do it with intentions of making it suffer and doing horrible violent acts to it as it suffers... How sick is humanity that we can condone such sickness? I don't sternly voice many definitive opinions, but this is NOT one that I will back down from. I will be an advocate for animal treatment from this point on for the rest of my life. I will do my part to bring awareness and educate people on the cruelty of what we are inflicting upon these animals. Laws need to not only be in place but should definitely be ENFORCED on these facilities with NO exception!!!

Keep in mind that animals are made from the same STARDUST that humans and the rest of existence are made from. They have molecular structure also. Humans just happen to evolve to higher consciousness. If you guys know anything about science, from particle to cosmological, you will understand that God lives within and all around ALL creation. God created ALL. We are ALL connected. We all are flourish energy at the most basic level. We must learn compassion for ALL God's creation, no matter the race or species!! If we can't comprehend this then I am afraid that humanity will never reach it's full potential. 

As far as the overpopulation, I am not necessarily saying sterilization but whether it is incentives or women being educated to consider being fixed or men for that matter is something that should at least be considered. If people continue having a high number of children the world's resources are going to indeed run out. Maybe it will not be in our generation but in generations to come. We need to start thinking past our own welfare of our world present and future. For instance, the US has an underground iceberg in the center of it and it is the main source of water, so what happens when that is depleted. Oh, well I will be glad to let you guys no that in California recycling of sewer is happening, and guess what there is no way for us to eliminate all the pharmaceuticals and food additives that we are consuming. Therefore, they are going back into those people. What health care issues to you think that will cause down the road? These are all serious issues. I'm not saying I have the answers, but I am saying that people need to be aware and start thinking about the big picture before it is too late.

WE ALL NEED TO BAND TOGETHER TO CHANGE THE WORLD, ONE PERSON AT A TIME WE DO HAVE THE POWER TO MAKE A DIFFERENCE!!

My 2011 Collage of Thoughts

My 2011 Collage of Thoughts



By Robbyn R. Wallace





Your Attitude + Your Choices = Your Life 




REPEAT AFTER ME: "*I* am responsible for *my* ~feelings, thoughts and actions~, AND *I* control how *I* view and react to the world..." 





I am so beyond being just fed up with Christian HYPOCRITES!! It's crazy how many 'delusional' people there are. Hide behind your religion but in the end it won't matter how often you attend church. What will matter is how you treat people, and what your true intentions are. Maybe you need to worry more about what God would think and less about what people think. Appearance can be VERY deceiving. Just saying!!


Having faith in God is not begging for "your" way but putting it in God's hands and trusting that he knows best.  




What is black to one person is white to another. And nothing in this world is so perfect that it is pure white, or so bad it is pure black. Everything concerning human beings comes in shades of gray. None of us is perfect, without flaws.




I just want to say that LIVING FOR GOD is not all about fellowship and church. Living for God is loving people no matter what, showing kindness and compassion to ALL of God's creation, and helping others mentally, physically, emotionally and/or otherwise. Mother Teresa was not known for always attending church and fellowshipping with those of 'her' faith, but going out and touching the lives of people of all faiths. She was not in it to persuade others to choose her faith, but to have a compassionate heart and love all people. I just wish so many people were not obsessed with their religion. It contaminates their perspective on God's true intentions for mankind. It is easy to love those who agree with you, but it is more important to love and reach out to those who don't and/or won't!! Okay, stepping off my soap box now!! 




When life gives you lemons make lemonade!!!!!! Just saying!! 


THOUGHT = Conscious acts of creation!! 


I am only me, that is who I choose to be. If I weren't me, then who else would I be? You can lie to others, but never to yourself & God! So, be true to yourself because that is what truly matters!!!! 


I love myself, just thought I would put that out there in the universe. To love yourself is to love God!! Just saying...


I might be the weird one in "your" world, but in “my" world you're the weird one. And guess what, I would much rather my world. However, you are welcome to join me anytime!! Visitors welcome!!  


Spiritual growth is a process of learning to live in harmony with the Universe through love and compassion for all God's creation. By practicing patience, understanding, compassion, kindness and love toward self and others you will radiate this energy through the Universe and in effect will touch others, directly and indirectly, and inspire spiritual growth within yourself... There are many paths that lead to God, everyone must choose their own with the conviction God places in their heart. God allows us freedom of choice. When a choice against his will is made, he then allows us to learn and grow from "our" choice. Everyone experiences suffering in one form or another, but God is always there with us. God is within us and all around us!


The human experience is a way for our soul to achieve growth by helping ourself & others, living & learning, loving & understanding, etc. Everything experienced in life has a purpose, and this purpose is for growth. This growth is important for our soul to be a better companion to God. If you fail to find the purpose in each experience, then you fail to grow from it. Suffering just happens to be apart of that, which is why it is allowed. Without it our soul would never know that experience, and in turn would not truly comprehend compassion! When you find acceptance in this process, you will then find understanding and contentment in your heart!! God Bless & May your day be great! Don't forget to smile at at least one person today!! Correction:  If you fail to accept each experience & use it as a tool to help self & others, then you fail to grow from it!! 


Prayer will calm anger and make life mean more:  Absolutely, once anger is calm and forgiveness is given, there is still the fact that actions and words are not forgotten. This doesn't mean that there has to be hard feelings, resentment or revenge, but situations and relationships are forever changed. This is where acceptance of change takes place! Love never dies just changes! Experiencing anger is a part of life, it is how you handle it that defines your character though! 


Emotions are so flippin human!!!! UGH!! Just imagine an existence NOT driven by human emotion but only by love and true understanding. Can you truly grasp the overwhelming presence of peace in that?!?! Anyway, that would be nice but impossible in the human realm. 


The best things in life are free!! Never lose sight of that!! No amount of money or material things can replace those things that come with no cost!! 


Loving from a distance is easy, it's loving up close and personal that can be difficult!! Patience & tolerance are not my best friend, sure wish they were though!! Hoping for a better tomorrow!!!! 


They say curiosity killed the cat, but I say boredom did!!!!! LMBO 


It is so weird how sometimes you can just get lost in the past. I know it isn't good for a person because we are supposed to live in the present, but I just can't seem to help myself sometimes. Sooooo much on my mind! Hoping it goes away soon... "sigh"


A person learns from life what their mind allows. You have to want more to get more. Knowledge is not given, but taken. One must sometimes broaden their mind to inspire even their self!!


There is a conflict within me, one of resistance and constant struggles. I am sad yet happy. Angry yet forgiving. Empty yet fulfilled. Heartless yet full of compassion. Hopeless yet full of hope. Lost yet found by God. Honest yet secretly hiding. Bold yet shy. Lonely yet surrounded by the world and God. Needing yet giving. Unloved yet loved. The internalized conflicts are never ending. Finding compromise, understanding, accepting and allowing oneself to feel what is good and release what isn't. This is where one finds inner peace. It is a never ending journey. It is my destiny, my goal!! 


I wish I had something GREAT to say, but unfortunately I am out of GREAT things to say at the moment. Stay tuned cause you never know when I might though!! heehee 


There are situations and choices in the past which have led up to that moment, and of which that moment is the consequence; and there are situations and choices in the future which spring directly from our response to that moment, and see in turn affected by our present choices. Therefore it makes sense to understand all we can about how we landed ourselves in a particular situation, for this understanding will in turn affect how we respond to life, and therefore what the next 'moment' will bring.


Beauty without substance is like a 'fake' diamond, pretty to look at but has no true value!! 




Life is but a mountain, and I am determined to reach the top no matter the obstacles I may face! Never give up, right? 


Does your child(ren) reflect who you are as a parent? If your child had to demonstrate what they have learned from you, what would he/she have to say? When parenting these are some questions we should be asking our self! We are all-human, thus are flawed. Mistakes are inevitable; it is how we handle them that define us...


I say lift up others despite how you feel, for it is always more fulfilling to make a POSITIVE difference!!!!


Love and be loved. Hate and be hated. JUDGE AND BE JUDGED. Have compassion and compassion will be given back to you. Well, guess I will stop there cause my brain ran out of words!! LOL... 


There are some people in this world that are impossible, and make it hard for good hearted people to have compassion for them! There are consequences for your actions, and it is time to take responsibility and be held accountable. There is a difference between supporting and loving a family member and enabling them! Learn it people!! 


Each struggle in life is an opportunity to shine... Well shoot, guess I still need a little buffing cause my luster is still a little dull!! LOL...


I say, "Love yourself first, then love others as you love yourself! Respect yourself first, then respect others as you respect yourself! All in all, do into others the way you would like others to do unto you." 


It is through our interactions with others that we become aware of our shortcomings and our abilities. It is through our personal encounters that we come to realize what we need to work on, as well as what it is we have with which to work.   


We attract souls to us that sometimes mirror a hidden image of our self, whether in a positive light or negative. Recognition of this is the first step into understanding why the people in our life are apart of it! What are the qualities you admire? Resent? Etc... If you want better, do better and you may attract better!!  


Goal for today: In your heart of hearts, from your soul, truly forgive someone today for a past transgression. Now it is time to unload that luggage you have been carrying around with you, you have no more use for it. Your life shall be enhanced for such a brave act of compassion and understanding!!  

P.S. From this moment on when you think about what was forgiven you will have no more negative emotion toward it. Remember that you are released and now you will feel compassion and understanding in place of anger and resentment! Forgiveness doesn't mean forgetfulness... It's okay to remember, just make sure to let those emotions felt change!!


Goal for today: Go out of your way to be nice to someone that you would never think twice about or someone who may get on your nerves!! Hope all have a great day!! 


Of all the mistakes made, none I am ashamed. For at the very least I learned humility! 


I believe that if you dig deep within yourself you will discover that you have the power to change your life. Just have faith in yourself, and the courage to adjust to transformation. Search for the true meaning in life, your spiritual journey. Once you take that first step you will discover that each step will become clearer and easier than the last. Learn to love, forgive, and have compassion for those you do not understand, for they’re also just living a human existence trying to find their way. Get away from those things that hold you back, and begin to live for a future that you most desire. 


Something to Ponder: When you talk behind someone's back you not only show lack of integrity and character but also you break trust and credibility...


Something to Ponder: People tend to reject things they do not understand!!


Something to Ponder: Scars remind us where we have been, BUT they do not determine where we are going!!


Over time life gave me many lemons that I didn't know what to do with, but eventually I learned to make lemonade. 


Huge pillow fight with my daughter = aching joints!!!! So well worth it tho. Laughed so hard I almost pee'd my pants. Ha. 


(July 4th 2011) 13 Years ago today my family lost a valuable piece of our puzzle, and that piece left us incomplete and always will. I love and miss you little brother, Christopher Wallace. RIP


As unique as we all are, it is amazing how similarly we all function! Have you ever wondered "Has or Does anyone else feel this way?" or "Does anyone understand what I am dealing with or going through?". The answer to those "type" questions is YES! YOU ARE NOT ALONE! There are many many people who do and have felt and thought exactly as you do. The emotions and thoughts you have are not unique to only you. The same broken record plays in my head as it plays in yours! The big difference is how YOU choose to deal with them! 


Main thing is always to remember you are a spiritual being having a human experience... Sometimes our life experiences are there to help our soul grow. Good and Bad, you always have the power to transform it into a positive outcome from within yourself... 


Yes, I have grey hair... Guess what? I think it's beautiful, and I'm keeping it... Ha... I prefer to be natural!! 




Having faith in God is not begging for "your" way but putting it in God's hands and trusting that he knows best.  


I believe being genuinely happy for other's good fortune shows strong character. We ultimately choose to feel jealous, just as we can choose not to feel it. It is always great to be reminded of our choices when it comes to what kind of person we desire to be. 


Goal for today: say good morning or hi to someone on FB that you normally don't or even wouldn't say it to. That is actively showing your inner love for others!!   


Real Christians are NOT condescending to others. Real Christians treat others as they would want to be treated. It disgusts me that there are some people who go to church every time the doors open, but turn around and treat others like crap or act condescending like they are so much more than they really are. It is called delusions of grandeur people. News Flash: You are NOT that important. I might not go to church, but I promise you one thing I am more of a Christian or righteous than most who do. At least I truly put in an effort to make ALL people feel important. I constantly make myself vulnerable to others because I try to be what GOD wants me to be even if it does cause me to be rejected at times. It just ticks me off how some people are such HYPOCRITES!!!! All I can say is that I pray that people snap out of hipocracy and break the circle with their children. Otherwise, the next generation will be no different. I think it is disturbing that those types are so blind to their ways. And, in my opinion, those who stick their pathetic nose up at others and don't show respect and kindness are some of the worst. I would NEVER want to be known or thought of as that kind of person. I try to acknowledge and show kindness to everyone and teach my daughter the same because showing kindness, compassion, love, understanding and forgiveness to others is the most important quality in any follower of God. If you can't master that then what kind of person are you???? ... I just wish they would realize how they are being perceived because it is NEVER too late to change and make a difference... I say, live by example and if you are going to talk the talk then walk the walk... 


There is NOTHING CHRISTIAN or HOLY about hate, intolerance, prejudice or bullying... Your job is to LOVE not JUDGE, even when it is something that you are against or against your personal beliefs. It's time to start teaching our children that it is NOT okay to bully others for ANY reason. Teach your kids LOVE NOT HATE!!


What good is it to know the Bible inside out if you don't know how to simply be a good person, a loving person, a compassionate and understanding person.... Something to ponder! 


Perfect time to plant your seeds of positivity and watch them grow...


How do you recognize the people that show up in your life that are only there to teach you a lesson?


In a massive, cosmology kind of way, through the concept of thermodynamics, human progress is but an ephemeral and inconsequential episode in a universal decay. Makes you wonder what our energy will converse to... I find it comforting knowing that our energy is infinite, and will become one with our source!! 


We deprive ourself of so much happiness when we allow the past to shape the present! 


Excuses are like butt-holes, everyone has one but yours STINKS!! 


Ever notice how many physically pretty women are some of the ugliest? If you happen to be blessed/cursed with physical beauty do NOT let it go to your head. Realize that it takes a lot more than that to actually be beautiful!!


Letting go of someone is not about letting go of the feelings but instead keeping the love, by moving on and letting them move on as well, and accepting that sometimes love's just not enough.


Thought for the day: If you are a bully OR participate in bullying and that person commits suicide, in my eyes you are associated as participating in premeditated MURDER!! So, you PARENTS out there QUIT teaching, by words and actions, your children intolerance of others differences!! If you are prejudice, or even racist, KEEP IT TO YOURSELF, AND for peets-sake do not be 'that' kind of role model for the next generation. READ YOU BIBLE, AND PUT THE 'CHRIST' BACK IN 'CHRISTIAN!! Enough said!! Sorry, but I am quite fed up of hearing of children committing suicide because of this kind of crap... It just hurts my heart... SOMEBODY, EVERYBODY, NEEDS TO SPEAK UP AGAINST BULLYING!!


Scientific studies have shown that forests and other natural green environments have positive health benefits. After spending time in these types of surroundings, people report having a reduction in stress, anger and aggressiveness. Recovery time from stressful situations is faster in natural, green surroundings than in urban areas. Natural surroundings have also been found to improve mood and reduce depression. Still more reports show that spending time in nature helps to lower blood pressure, heart rate, muscle tension, and stress hormone levels.


My thought for the night: I am a friend of great "quality" but don't do too much "quantity" with friends. In other words, I always strive to give such good quality to all my friends that they don't need near as much quantity of my time. 


Ok, one more goofy saying... Embrace the dork within. That's the motto I try to live by. Those who know me well will understand why I say that. I am a dork, and darn proud of it!!!! 


Heavannah Holland, I want you to know how very proud I am of the person you are, the person you're becoming, and the person I know you will be. You fill my heart with so much hope and faith. Every time you stay true to yourself, every time you act as individual and not a follower, and every time you treat another person with kindness and acceptance you realize your potential. You are my heart-n-soul. You are my home. You are everything I live for. You bring me true happiness. You are the main reason God created me. You give my life purpose and meaning. I appreciate you, and what you bring to my life. Thank you for your tolerance of all my imperfections as a parent, and as a friend. I love you T.I.F.E. and so far beyond, even, that. ((HUGZ))


Lovin my simple lil country life, being a single lil Momma, and raising a beautiful sweet daughter... How could I possibly ask for or even want anything more, and I truly mean that!! It's all about finding the joy in each moment or phase of life. Be thankful, no matter how much or less that you have. Make the most of your life at each level. And, always strive to be better, for yourself and those you love. I may not have a lot in some peoples eyes, but in mine I am the richest person in the world.... When Heavannah gets grown a whole new and exciting part of my life, and life goals, will begin to blossom. However, I want to bask in the pure happiness of the current moment... I am excited for the here and now, but still look forward to a wonderful and eventful future. 


Facebook is a but a vehicle for me to express myself and share that expression with others. This is 100% the real me, the only me. I am not ashamed and make no apologies, everyone has a choice as to what and whom they are subjected to. Always remember that and exercise that right! 


Scientifically, what are we really made of? The stuff that we are made of today only requires maybe a handful of little particles. The atoms on the outside, our electrons whirling around like planets, if you'd like, and there is a nucleus in the center of the atom which we used to believe consist of protons and neutrons. Well, it is but deeper down, they in turn, like going to the heart of the cosmic onion, are made of little things called quarks. Two types of quarks, an up quark and a down quark. And that's it, an up and a down quark joined together in different ways. Ultimately, made of the atomic nucleus, an electron whirling around the outside makes the atom. Throw in a nutrino, which is created in radio active processes, and that is the basic particles that makes up everything that you see around you. There are also photon of light which we are seeing with right now, and that is pretty well it. Quarks don't have any size, the size of the radius of a quark is zero. They are like a tiny box full of energy. All matter, including us, is actually made of energy that has congealed into particulate form. That appears to be what we are made of, at least as far as we can see right now. But knowing this opens up an even greater mystery which is, "Why is the stuff we are made of behave the way it does?" Take a minute to really think about this. To me, the particle world is just as mysterious as the cosmic one. AND, I FREAKIN LOVE IT!! :)


I am reminded daily that it is a choice to be happy, peaceful, and content, no matter the circumstances or environment, failures or successes. I "choose" the higher road, the higher path. I "choose" to find peace and happiness within myself. I "choose" not to allow the negativity of this world to determine my inner state of being. I am grateful to live in an existence where there is a "choice"!


Even when you absolutely know it will never last forever you love even more so deeply because one day there will be no tomorrow with that particular person, however, the impact of that love will last an eternity.


Feel! Yes, feel. Whether it be bad or good, just feel it. With it's full impact. What does it do to you? What can it do? Destroy or empower? Your choice! What ignites your fire, the fire within you? Only you know, and only you can chose and act upon.


My brain is infested with thoughts of you!! My heart is tortured with my love for you!! Every fiber of me, down to my very soul, aches for you and only you!! So what do I do without you, with me, always? Every breath I take comes with a price, life continuing without you, my love! You complete me! You are my happy place, my home! I need you! I want you in my life! I have to have you in my life! I will never give up! You are forever in my heart, and I love you, my beautiful soulmate!!


I am at peace, and content, within and with myself, even though I could say my life is lacking goal time-line. However, the climb is worth the view at the top, even when you have to stop and rest more often than intended!! :)


On this earth there is belief that we are separate from source. This is a fear-based reality. From the time we are born we are programmed with belief systems from our family, country, culture, education, religion, etc., without the ability to discern what is authentic for us. In essence, we create a persona based on other people’s perceptions and reactions to our behaviors. This creates a false self, one born out of a reactive consciousness, manufactured personality based on image.


The first talk I had with my daughter about 1st went something like this. (You know, 1st kisses, etc.) Her logic: You said you had your 1st kiss at 12 years old, so it must be ok. My logic to her: I'm not the best example to live by dear, and I expect and want better for you. I smoked my 1st joint at your age, and that definitely was and is NOT ok or good. You can do better than that, and I expect better. So, for future reference just because I did something at your age does NOT make it ok for you. Again, I am not the best example of my expectations for you. I can't go back and change it, but, through you, I can make it right (aka... A Lesson Learned) It's these type opportunities that define what we are instilling in our children. I took this opportunity to share my expectations, to be honest in my own mistakes, to be earnest in my lessons learned, and to communicate on a "real" level with my child. We are all imperfect, we have all made errors in judgement at one point or another no matter the severity. It is ok to show humility, by showing you are teaching. We should always express our desire for a better experience for our child. Always remember, your child is also a person. And, more than likely YOU are their primary role model. Moral here: Communication and understanding is key.


It's not where I have been in life, it is about where I am destined and getting there justly. Through my, many, bad judgments in life I have learned how to live, learn, grow and teach. I am neither ashamed nor regretful, for I gained a world of understanding, knowledge and wisdom!


Reactive behavior creates intense sparks of light but eventually leaves darkness in its wave. Nestled within our reactive behavior is the desire for instant gratification. It offers a quick high that makes us feel alive and in control of our lives. We can become addicted to this feeling, just as a runner does to endorphins or a drug addict to heroin, crack, or cocaine.


Don't ever mistake my kindness or kind-heartedness for weakness, cause believe me I have strength you can only dream of. Booyah Baby... Ha


Even though I am very hopeful of a peaceful tomorrow for our future generations, I am forever indebted to all who have protected, even helped shape, our great nation, our world. Thank you to ALL veterans! My heart breaks knowing the cost, emotionally & physically, many have paid to serve their nation. I remain thankful, everyday, that I gained so much, instead of loss of self, through all my experiences in the military and even my tour in Iraq. We are a blessed Nation!! Shout out to all my comrads, but MOSTLY my Dad & Grandfather, who both inspired me to follow my own path of service!! :)


What is black to one person is white to another. And nothing in this world is so perfect that it is pure white, or so bad it is pure black. Everything concerning human beings comes in shades of gray. None of us is perfect, without flaws.


I LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE MY PRECIOUS, WONDERFUL, BEAUTIFUL, INSIDE AND OUT, DAUGHTER, HEAVANNAH HOLLAND! SHE IS MY WORLD, MY LIFE, MY DREAMS, MY HOPES, AND EVERYTHING I EVER WANTED AND NEEDED IN LIFE. T.I.F.E. (TO INFINITY FOR ETERNITY) ALWAYS AND FOREVER. I AM ETERNALLY GRATEFUL FOR THIS WONDERFUL GIFT THAT I WAS BLESSED WITH. 


What does it truly mean to be a good parent? Selfless and unconditional love, without being an enabler. Sacrifice, of people and material things. Protecting at ALL costs. Knowing that you would lose the world and anything in it for your child without a second thought, and doing the right thing. Absorbing all the hurt and pain, being a cushion of protection. Nurturing, sharing, loving, protecting, and being a good example, someone that can be admired and respected in their eyes. Doing what is right, even when it isn’t easy. Practicing what you preach so that they learn to do the same. Showing compassion for them, and for all God’s creation. Discipline, structure, and teaching when necessary. Tough love, when necessary. Quality time with them is more important than quantity, even though quantity is great when available. Respect, given and received. Being honest and teaching honesty, no matter the consequences. Participating, being an active role model and playing an active role in their life with consistency. Learning and growing together as a family. Being the rock when they need something solid to lean on. Loving… Laughing… Living… Allowing them to see the humanity in you as a parent and a person. Being accessible to their needs. Teaching morals and values that will last a lifetime, a foundation they can build upon for the rest of their life. The list is endless, but this is a start… There is no mountain too tall, no valley too low, no ocean to wide to be the best parent you can be to your precious, gift(s), child(ren). Love them, protect them, cherish them and do not take them for granted, for you are not promised tomorrow to make it right with them… Do it NOW!! Let them know they are loved, cherished, and appreciated for the wonderful person they are and can be. Teach them to have compassion for all of God’s creation, in return they may love and be loved beyond our expectations!!


Everyone deserves equality! It is time for people to put aside prejudice and discrimination!! Hopefully people will open up their hearts and minds, and realize that we are ALL children of God! Throughout history prejudice and discrimination has consumed the hearts of many good people! When has prejudice or discrimination ever served a higher purpose or brought anyone to God? NEVER! The journey to God is NOT through any negative thought or action to self or another, but through the love and compassion that ties us all to God! You cannot live for God with hatred in your heart!! 


Plant seeds... Some may grow right away... Some seeds may take longer to develop or grow... And some may never grow... But all we can do is plant the seeds and let God do the rest! 


I do not aim to change peoples mind, just broaden it!! 


I am weary in my human sufferings. My spirit is wounded and hiding. Knowing and doing seem so distant in wisdom. My heart is broken beyond a million pieces, with an impossibility of ever being whole again. My soul sheds so many tears knowing that pain is ultimately inflicted by and to each of us. We are infected with saturated half-truths and contaminated knowledge. Like a virus we continue on consuming all in our way. Stop, slow down, take a minute to see what is right in front of you. Hope becoming so dim, leaving it difficult to see the path and find our way. Faith diminishes with each failure. Is it too late, has it been too long. How do we go on. Weakness can be the demise of a good thing. Love and hate flirt religiously with one another. Can we overcome pain by replacing it with love, is it ever too late. Once again I say, I am very weary in my human sufferings. Yet I must continue on, while trying to remember my song!!


Happy Thanksgiving! I am thankful for everything in and of itself. Good and bad, I am shaped by all that was, is, and will be in my life. But, I think I am most Thankful for my daughter who brings richness, beyond belief, to my life. I am constantly memorized by the person she was and is. She completes me and my life. Hope everyone has a blessed and wonderful day!! Don't forget to focus on gratitude on this day of thanks!! ♥


Thought of the day: Never think there is any excuse for being mean spirited that would be considered appropriate, there is not. In the end it can always be simplified to the basic saying 'Do unto others as you would want to be done'. Think it out. It may also help improve and/or strengthen your decision-making processes. Be Blessed!! :)


Inner strength is an amazing and enduring quality. One of the hardest tasks is to love in the face of adversity, forgive when it hurts the most, understand when it makes no sense, and carry on when you feel like giving up. If you can manage these tasks in the end you will find yourself with inner peace in knowing you overcame odds and proclaimed your relationship with the higher intelligence/God! May all have a Blessed Day! Take time to appreciate yourself today, and what you add to this world. Remember, we all add something a little special!!







My daughter truly amazes me. It warms my heart when she reflects wisdom beyond her years. It gives me comfort that she is learning some of the most important lessons I constantly preach to her. Even better, it gives me joy to see her walk the walk and be the person I hoped and prayed her to be. All the good grades in the world can't compare to that!! Just saying... :)






Thought for Today: Appreciate that God gave us a brain to learn with, ears to listen with, mouth to speak with, heart to love with, eyes to see with, people who have the desire to teach others, and the internet and FaceBook as a great tool to reach others' hearts and minds! May all Be Blessed!







The great thing about cliche's is that they are usually correct, sometimes it just takes time and appreciation to understand how they work!! 


Example:


"This too shall pass"! This is true on the most basic of levels, EVERYTHING PASSES (sooner or later). If you can just hold on and be strong through the storm, eventually it will calm and you will appreciate the strength it gave you. 


When you are in the midst of struggles, pain or grief it is so difficult to have faith that there is always better days ahead. In the midst of a struggle, pain or grief it may seem like there is no light at the end of the tunnel. However, you have to be determined within yourself to make the most out of your life, learn and grow spiritually, always give back or pay it forward, and sooner or later that light at the end of the tunnel will become visible!!

Complacent with my thoughts, hoping for burst of ideas to form a magnificent ideal! Tired of being trapped within this confinement, ready for true freedom! So much compassion wasted on nothingness! Wanting more, needing less, and having what is. Struggles drowning my spirit within. The light at the end of the tunnel is still so dim. Trying to live up to expectations and desires, falling short. Not giving up, just struggling to continue. When will I have my hearts desire, wondering if it will ever come again. Discouraging at times but hopeful always, I will fight til the end. Without my dreams I am nothing. Dreams not consisting of earthly pleasure, but fulfillment of my soul. My purpose nothing but divine til the end of time, then passing into infinity is what I most desire! I am a spirit having a human experience, not the other way around! 







I hope it pours down raining tonight!! I want to sit on my back porch, relax and listen. :)






The difference between Prayer and Meditation: Prayer is supplication to God, and Meditation is listening to His answer!! 


Being quiet, in mind and body, gives God a chance to whisper in your ear. It's more important to hear God's direction than begging for your wishes or desires. God is always there to lead you through, inevitable, struggles, pain, and even grief. Let His whispers touch your soul and comfort your spirit. Find peace and solace in his wisdom. 


When my ears fail to hear I have faith that my heart got the message and will guide me through helping me to make choices that are in tune with God's desire for me and my life. I try to always view all things with understanding from a higher perspective than merely my ego perspective. It can be very difficult at times, but it always proves invaluable in my spiritual growth and relationship to God. 










Something to ponder: When it comes down to it ALL humans have the innate need to be accepted by others, and when denied that acceptance it causes emotions of pain and hurt to turn to never ending anger.

Personality is how we interact and communicate with the world around us. Personality defines a degree of our character. Personality can be altered, improved, and/or strengthened. Each thought eventually finds a way to express itself, whether through our interactions with the world around us or even how we treat our-self. Be the change you wish to see in the world! Only you can change "your" world and in turn possibly change someone elses, sometimes just merely through a change in perception. Take that first step by focusing each thought, each action and reaction in a positive direction!! 





EVERY MIND IS A FOREIGN COUNTRY!! All are absolutely unique in the combination thoughts, desires, feelings, and beliefs. :)

Our Sojourn Through Time And Space

Our Sojourn Through Time And Space

By Robbyn Wallace

Our purpose in life is to become whole; to learn the lessons needed to accomplish such a task is available through our interactions with one another. As we are born we become unaware, as our sojourn begins and takes form. Who are we? We are so much more than this simple human existence, which is a shell of who we really are. Hidden by human characteristics and human experience, struggling with the human ego. The more love, compassion, faith, etc. we embrace, the closer we become to wholeness and our trueness. We each have a path, a journey. To be more compassionate of one another’s own journey, the more we become whole and one with our creator. We need one another more than we realize, cause without the lessons we provide one another we can never become whole. These lessons are not always easy, but we should always be compassionate towards even our enemies. Forgiveness is the key; there is no true vindication through revenge or vengeance. If one lets anger and fear reside within them, wholeness will never be possible. Let go of anger and fear, for it does nothing but hold us back from our true potential. Just let go and be free. Practice makes perfect those things we most desire to grow within us. Find peace and solace in each moment of life, for there is joy to be found even in the most mundane of experiences. Others weaknesses allow opportunities for growth, your weaknesses also in return can provide opportunities for others growth as well. Together we can help one another find the wholeness and oneness with our creator. Love comes from within and radiates outward, effecting all that our existence touches. Each of us holds the power to help others. Helping others is something that comes from within; one should not help with ulterior motives in mind. Love without expectancies, even when love is not returned in full. Love should always be unconditional, even when choices are hard and results are not desirable. Life is too short to expect anything less of oneself!! 

WHAT DOES IT MEAN TO BE A PARENT

 

“What Does It Mean To Be A Parent”
by Robbyn Wallace

There comes a time in your life when you have to make choices, actually many times in your life. The choices you make will determine the outcome, and consequences are inevitable. How far would you, as a parent, go to protect your child, even from the possibility, from being hurt? Sometimes these choices are so hard that you do not know how you will survive them. Especially when the choices being made have to be done at the cost of others feelings, even those that may or may not be guilty and that you love so much. Making the right choices for yourself and your child, this is most important.

What does it truly mean to be a good parent?

Selfless and unconditional love, without being an enabler. Sacrifice, of people and material things. Protecting at ALL costs. Knowing that you would lose the world and anything in it for your child without a second thought, and doing the right thing. Absorbing all the hurt and pain, being a cushion of protection. Nurturing, sharing, loving, protecting, and being a good example, someone that can be admired and respected in their eyes. Doing what is right, even when it isn’t easy. Practicing what you preach so that they learn to do the same. Showing compassion for them, and for all God’s creation. Discipline, structure, and teaching when necessary. Tough love, when necessary. Quality time with them is more important than quantity, even though quantity is great when available. Respect, given and received. Being honest and teaching honesty, no matter the consequences. Participating, being an active role, and playing an active role, in their life with consistency. Learning and growing together as a family. Being the rock when they need something solid to lean on. Loving… Laughing… Living… Allowing them to see the humanity in you as a parent and a person. Being accessible to their needs. Teaching morals and values that will last a lifetime, a foundation they can build upon for the rest of their life. The list is endless, but this is a start…

There is no mountain too tall, no valley too low, no ocean to wide to be the best parent you can be to your precious, gift(s), child(ren). Love them, protect them, cherish them and do not take them for granted, for you are not promised tomorrow to make it right with them… Do it NOW!! Let them know they are loved, cherished, and appreciated for the wonderful person they are and can be. Teach them to have compassion for all of God’s creation, in return they may love and be loved beyond our expectations!!

I LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE LOVE MY PRECIOUS, WONDERFUL, BEAUTIFUL, INSIDE AND OUT, DAUGHTER, HEAVANNAH HOLLAND! SHE IS MY WORLD, MY LIFE, MY DREAMS, MY HOPES, AND EVERYTHING I EVER WANTED AND NEEDED IN LIFE. T.I.F.E. (TO INFINITY FOR ETERNITY) ALWAYS AND FOREVER. I AM ETERNALLY GRATEFUL FOR THIS WONDERFUL GIFT THAT I WAS BLESSED WITH.

MYSELF WITHIN

Myself Within
By Robbyn Wallace

It's okay, you can come out to play. No need to feel ashamed, you are not to blame. Truth will set you free, it's okay to just be me. No shame out there nor in here, there is nothing left to fear. There is more than just hope, it's time to learn to cope. For I am just me, who else could I possibly be! So much to give, so go out and live.

Soul Journey

 

Soul Journey
By Robbyn Wallace

Complacent with my thoughts, hoping for burst of ideas to form a magnificent ideal! Tired of being trapped within this confinement, ready for true freedom! So much compassion wasted on nothingness! Wanting more, needing less, and having what is. Struggles drowning my spirit within. The light at the end of the tunnel is still so dim. Trying to live up to expectations and desires, falling short. Not giving up, just struggling to continue. When will I have my hearts desire, wondering if it will ever come again. Discouraging at times but hopeful always, I will fight til the end. Without my dreams I am nothing. Dreams not consisting of earthly pleasure, but fulfillment of my soul. My purpose nothing but divine til the end of time, then passing into infinity is what I most desire! I am a spirit having a human experience, not the other way around!

FALSE MEMORY

False Memory

Cognitive Psychology
By Robbyn Wallace

2004

Abstract

The phenomenon of false memory became an important issue in the 1980’s and 1990’s. At that time, many patients asserted they recalled memories of being sexually assaulted as a child. In many cases, false memories had been suggested or implanted by analysts. False memory became important in resolving many court cases. Analysts became targets for lawsuits due to implantation of false memories. Early studies were performed to verify if false memory was possible. In the last years of the twentieth century, more studies were performed to learn about false memory and how it can be affected, developed, altered and recalled. The results of the latest studies show false memory can and does occur. It can be altered by outside influences. False memories can be forced out of memory. They can be recalled freely. Within the studies considered, none showed the impact of emotions on false memory. This report will reflect the publications of experiments considered and reviewed. But, as none of them conclude emotion may act as an outside influence for false memory, they do not go far enough. Clearly, there is a need for a study to determine how false memory can be influenced by emotion in real life situations.
 

False Memory

False memory does not exist. It occurs. False memories are formed or retrieved in an atmosphere conditioned by the emotional state of the subject during the time the event occurs. People use sensory details to distinguish their memories. Memory is the key component in understanding theories of cognition. Some memories are true. Some are a blend of fact and fantasy. Others are entirely false. Due to the reconstructive nature of memory, some memories may be distorted through influences such as the incorporation of new information. The resulting memories, not based in historical reality, have been called false memories, pseudo-memories and memory illusions. Memory abilities and limitations are vital to understanding problem solving, decision-making, attention, and perception. False memory may impair these abilities.
    
Every aspect of cognition depends upon memory. How well one remembers things is an important issue for theories of cognition. To understand problem solving, decision-making, attention and perception one must know the abilities and limitations of memory. Quality of memory is important for practical reasons. Many events rely upon reports from human observers. Memory accuracy is critical to eyewitness testimony in criminal trials. Witnesses to crimes must accurately recall details of a traumatic event. Without accurate recall, witnesses could describe details differently than viewed. It is difficult to access memory without objective evidence such as pictures or tape recordings. It is also important in day-to-day events such as spousal arguments concerning who said what. Technical and mundane tasks require accurate recognition of memories in everyday situations.
    
Memory can be highly affected by suggestion. How can one be sure of where a memory originates? Does it originate from one’s own recollections, someone else’s suggestion, a dream, and pictures? An example: Can you remember your first birthday? If so, is it truly your own recollection? Actual memories can be induced when a person is encouraged to imagine specific events with no concern as to whether the event actually occurred—as when under hypnosis. In many cases, imagining an event will increase a subject’s belief the event actually occurred. This report proposes that false memory exist as a condition of cognition. There are many different studies on the subject of false memory; however, there is a need for studies to include the effect of emotions on false memory.

Method

Three publications dealing with different factors affecting false memory are considered. The first publication studied the effects of manipulated studied and test modalities. The experimenter presented lists of words in auditory and visual modalities to participants. The second publication considers the affects of free and forced retrieval on false recall and recognition. By working in a controlled setting, there is greater control over variables that can be more easily identified and theories tested. The third publication deals with the affect of outside influences on false memory, by considering the effects of stress and personality traits. However, none of these studies consider the role that emotion play on false memories in real life conditions. 

The study conducted in the first publication compared states of awareness for both correct and false recognition’s across the four combinations of auditory and visual modalities at study and test. This experiment used fifty-six undergraduate students from several universities. The materials used were twelve of the 24 15-word lists used by Roediger and McDermott (199; Expt 2). (Maylor & Mo, 1999)

Maylor and Mo, the experimenters, developed several lists including critical theme words. In each of the lists, twelve words were used as critical theme words. For each study list the experimenters created a corresponding recognition test. Each of the twelve-item lists contained a critical theme word, seven studied words and four non-studied words. The critical theme words always appeared in a specific position on the list. They were always at the ninth, tenth, or eleventh position. Fifty-six students participated in the experiment. There were four experimental conditions. Assignment of the tests was performed randomly for the fifty-six student participants. (Maylor and Mo, 1999)

The participants were tested individually. Participants were instructed their memory would be tested on a series of word lists presented. They were informed whether the to-be-remembered words would be presented auditory or visually. Participants were required to count backwards aloud in threes from a randomly assigned 3-digit number for 15’s; this was required immediately after the presentation of each list. After each presentation of the list there was distracter task. Written responses were required. Participants then indicated whether each word was old (studied) or new (non-studied). They were asked to judge the level of awareness for each word considered as old. (Maylor & Mo, 1999)

In studying false memory, the experimenters studied remember, know and guess responses. The instructions they designed were based upon earlier studies. Remember responses were designed to be items with which the participants had experience and participants could recall something of that experience. Know responses were designed as items for which participants had no experience, but were confident they had studied the item. Guess responses were those for which participants had no experience or confidence of prior study. (Maylor and Mo, 1999)

The aim was to discover whether study and test modalities had consistent or opposite effects on correct and false memories. This experiment showed results that for auditory presentation at study, false recognition rates were lower than correct recognition rates. For visual presentation at study, correct recognition rates were lower than false recognition rates. (Maylor & Mo, 1999) “When study and test modalities match, stored sensory information can be used to enhance the correct recognition of studied words and to reduce the false recognition of critical lures. On the other hand, when study and test modalities differ, stored sensory information is less useful and so correct recognition is reduced and false cognition is increased.” (Maylor & Mo, 1999) Maylor and Mo demonstrated that false memory occurs across various combinations of auditory and visual modalities at study and test. This study confirms the occurrence of false memory by expansion of earlier studies.

The second publication emphasizes use of the DRMRS (Deese-Roediger-McDermott-Read-Solso or “drummers”) procedure. This procedure consists of using word lists to identify accurate and false recall. An alternative study determined there might be common processes in the DRMRS procedure and in real life. It is postulated that false recall can be processed during presentation, tests, or both. It is suggested that students recall more critical concepts as memories rather than studied list items. This theory has been strongly challenged various experimenters. By using forced methods for recall, participants may have relaxed standards for reporting critical concepts. Free retrieval developed more accurate recall. In other words, while false memory exists, it can be affected by the method of extraction.

The participants in this experiment were members of two psychology research methods classes, and they were assigned randomly to the free and forced retrieval instruction conditions. In the two conditions, participants for class one; there were 27 (free) and 26 (forced). The corresponding numbers in class two were 24 and 23. The lists were read in opposite order in class one than from class two. The materials consisted of six lists of 14 words associated with the central concepts (sleep, book, cold, eat, needle, and high), which the procedure was taken from the DRMRS procedure. This experiment constructed the cold list. The other lists were used from other studies constructed previously. (McKelvie, 2001)

The procedure used were two experimental groups that were given their retrieval instructions separately, in each class. The participants were then immediately brought together for testing in a single session. Both groups were told specifically how the experiment was to be conducted. They were also aware that they would have to immediately recall the items on each list in any order after it was read. In the free retrieval condition they were told to write down as many words as they could on the 14 spaces provided. The participants in the forced retrieval were to fill all 14 spaces. Class one and two were read the six lists in opposite order. The lists were read in order, depending on class, by the experimenter at a 3-s pace, with 2.5 min permitted for immediate written recall of each list. There was a rating scale to be completed after each word was recalled, which consisted of rating it for confidence. It was a 6-point scale: 4 – certain, 3 = very confident, 2 = reasonably confident, 1 = slightly confident, 0 = word written but no confidence it was on the list, -1 = word written but you think it was not on the list. The participants were required to rate each word they recalled. Once the participants completed the final list, they were then given an unannounced 18-word recognition test that contained three words pertinent to each of the six lists. (McKelvie, 2001)

The third publication references an experiment conducted in a laboratory setting where participants are shown pictures and words. It focuses on outside variables including stress imagery, trait anxiety and depression. The experimenters discuss hypnosis as a mental state variable, but relied more upon results from tests utilizing the variables of stress and trait anxiety. “A false memory in this task was defined as recalling as a picture, an item that had actually been presented as a word.” (Roberts, 2002)

The design of this experiment was to use the same questionnaires and to have the participants participate in the same memory task. Participants were tested early in the first semester and then late in the second semester prior to the end of year examinations, this allowed stress to be manipulated in a quasi-experimental way within participants. The experiment included 60 undergraduate students from Murdoch University. The materials and apparatus used in this experiment started with a set of 60 concrete nouns and 60 line drawings depicting these words, but in order to ensure that each drawing was identified with its associated verbal label there were five judges that were ask to name each picture. After the elimination process, the final set consisted of 50 words and pictures that were randomly assigned half to Set A and half to Set B. One set contained 25 words and the other set contained 25 pictures. There were four separate questionnaires used. The four questionnaires used were “The Speilberger (1969) State-Trait Anxiety Inventory (STAI), the Beck (1987) Depression Inventory (BDI), the Questionnaire on Mental Imagery (QMI, Sheehan, 1967) and the Verbalizer-Visualizer Questionnaire (VVQ, Richardson, 1994)” (Roberts, 2002). 

The procedure in this experiment was to administer one testing session early in the first semester and one testing session late in the second semester prior to the participant’s first examination during final examinations. The second testing session occurred between seven and eight months from the first testing session. The tests were administered in-groups of two to 15 in a quiet room. Participants were told that the experiment was on how people classify objects. In the first testing session participants were exposed to Set A, and were exposed to Set B in the second testing session, which the order was switched per group. There were three phases per testing session. The slides of pictures and words were presented for five seconds each in the first phase, and between each slide there was a blank screen present for one second. The participants were told that their accuracy on this test would be scored. There were a total of 50 slides presented, of which at the end the participant had to record their tally of animate and inanimate objects on a response sheet. The participants filled out the QMI, VVQ, STAI and BDI, in that order, in the second phase of the experiment. Participants were asked to recall all the pictures that had previously been presented and to write the names of those pictures on the response sheet, this was done in phase three. Participants were told not to write the names of words previously presented, and only two minutes was allowed for this task. Then participants were given a two-minute break before completing the second task, which consisted of again recalling previous pictures and writing words for the picture on a different response sheet. Participants were finally asked to make a “remember” or “know” judgment to each of the items they had recalled on the second attempt of the recall task. The experiment had an approximate duration of 45 minutes. (Roberts, 2002)

Discussion

The various studies conducted established the existence of false memory. Two of the publications considered outside influences, which included the method of extracting false memory. The outside influences included stress, personality traits, and other factors. The publications did not consider the impact that emotions in real life situations have on false recall. Each publication was a giant step toward recognition and manipulation of false memory. By not including the filtering affect of emotions, the studies may not validate real life experiences. Emotions trigger how a memory etches itself into brain asymmetry, and the validity of its recall. What are emotions? According to the Merriam-Webster dictionary emotions are: “a psychic and physical reaction (as anger or fear) subjectively experienced as strong feelings and physiologically involving changes that prepare the body for immediate vigorous action.” Emotion can be the key component on whether or not a vivid memory is captured. In a scenario of a first date, where the person’s senses are heightened, they are more inapt to recall vivid details following the date. When the senses are at a more positive heightened state, memories seem to be captured more accurately. Understandably, highly negative emotions may trigger memory to be repressed. Emotions are an important factor on accurate recall; they can either diminish or enhance details of a memory. Further more, strong emotion can cause the development of false memories as a defense mechanism. Without considering the role emotions play on memory, one cannot conclude the accurate validity of false recall. However, each study done is a stepping-stone to better understanding of false memory. 

Conclusion

Freud postulated that many physical ailments of women patients were the result of sexual activity before the age of eight. The 1896 report shocked Europe. One year later, he abandoned his “seduction theory”, as there had been too many cases to be believable. In fact, it is possible Freud unwittingly implanted false memories during the interview process. (Fraser, 1994) There has been much controversy due to implantation of false memories during therapy, which led to numerous studies of false memory. The most commonly recognized false memory concerns was sexual abuse cases from childhood, being recalled during adulthood. In the 1980’s and 1990’s so many cases, of recalled child abuse, were brought to the attention of the public by news media. It became imperative for studies to determine the validity of previously unrecalled memories, due to the overwhelming publicity of recalled sexual abuse through therapy.

While various researchers employed different methodologies, similar conclusions about false memory were developed. Most studies were constructed through word or sentence recall tasks. They were primarily constructed with special distracters, which were used to help identify false memories. These special distracters were usually words or sentences that fit into the list or other sentences shown. There were also normal distracters, which may not have fit into the flow of the other words or sentences. Research on false memory included other test, which included color, pictures, videos, and sound. 

False memories can sometimes seem more valid than actual memories. In word structured studies confidence level of recall was higher for words that did not appear than for words that did appear. Interestingly, if people could have such confidence to recall words that did not appear in a list, then one cannot be certain of a person’s recall of an actual event.

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